Anyways today I ate "healthy" but skipped the gym. I justified my laziness by saying I would go twice as long tomorrow. Well see if that happens. It will most likely, because I must force myself. I plan on fasting tomorrow oh and today I weight 169 which is a high for me. Lately I've been weighing around 163-167 but I had a bad weekend filled with food and depression. I'm just trying to get back down to 163 so I can then get to my next goal of 160.
Some things have happened with J. We slept together for a total of 3 times now but I will NEVER talk to him again. I totally embarrassed myself when I was drunk I ended up calling him more than 15 times yes. And texting him some things I am too mortified to post. Why must I be such a lush? He didn't reply to any text or calls. I obviously look like a stage five clinger. He hasn't talked to me since the beginning of the month before my druken mishap. But I am also NOT talking to him again because he only talks to me when he wants something. And after 3 years of fearing relationships, I am ready to date again.
I must head off to bed now though I have a busy day tomorrow considering I will be spending at least 3 hours at the gym.. eek.
