Hello new and old followers I am so sorry for neglecting my blog and yours. I've been busy soo very busy with work and finals. I'm not sure if I passed my classes yet for sure I have to go talk to my counselor and see whats up with that. There is a boy in my life well quite a few.. I just like to keep my options open I guess. I promise to post once or twice a week from now on. My weight is still the same. Sadly no fasting and definitely NO binging. Fuck binging.. Anyways I will try to post tomorrow again a much longer one with plans of fast and an update of my boys and job oh and pictures of my new apartment. It feels almost impossible to read through all of your blogs and comment but I am going to try.
I kinda miss not having a life but keeping busy has been fun....except I never have time for anything. I've made a lot of friends at work. It feels nice being liked. When I walk in and people call my name like "aww ____(input real name here)___". Being missed when they just saw me yesterday. I am also less depressed although I could never tell the same secrets I tell you guys it still feels nice to have people around. Not being alone...its nice. Its been hard for me to get to blog because I don't have internet in my apartment. The apartments have internet in the front like around the pool area so that is where I am sitting right now. I feels nice outside there is a cool breeze. A nice ending to this hot day.
So at work I was almost fired. At my job you have a probation period where you get 90 days to basically not fuck up. Well I fucked up. I got written up twice for legit reasons of being late. The third time was bullshit. I got written up for forgetting something for another girls table and when I went to tell her that I forgot maybe 10 minutes later she freaked out and told on me. She is a favorite at work...don't fuck with the favorites. I am so used to being liked by everyone but I don't think the managers like me because I screw up quite a bit. So friday they called me into the office and tried to 'terminate' me but when needed I can cry. Usually I don't because I feel weak when I cry so I avoid tears at all cost. Any whoooo I started crying and explained my head hasn't been fully there because of finals and I that I really loved this job and one last chance would be all I needed to prove I was a great waitress. I also never beg. I did. I love this job and I love the people. I just suck sometimes. So she, one of my managers the idiot one, decided to just suspend me. It sucks because I miss a weekend of making lots of money but at least I still have this job. I come back from the vacation aka suspension monday. I hope and pray I can prove myself to them. Please do whatever you all believe in hopes prayers ect. For me to keep this job and make lots of money.
I love you all and have missed you all so much. Be back tomorrow my loves.
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About Me
- Silhouette
- My name isn't important, I am here to vent, once a full time ana but now back to square one. I started to recover after my victory of 99. Recovering on my own which is never recommended, I wanted to rid myself of this disease and I did(or at least I thought i did). I loved food, I ate and ate. I loved the way my pallet would be able to taste ingredients so well. I became one of those people who was always D.T.E (down to eat). Until I started to notice more and more weight being put on. I stepped on the scale at my friends house, ( my mother hid the scale from me) and there it was a number I never heard of a whopping 183. I immediately hated myself. Now I'm back to my old ways, habits. I used to have a blog under the name Fading Figure.
I missed you! <3
ReplyDeleteI missed your posts too! Glad things are going well in some places and hoping dearly for you to be ok in your job. Hopefully they'll continue to see how wonderful you are.
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Awww! i missed you too, darling...
ReplyDeletegOod luck on your job!♥♥
hi hun!! jus got all caught up on yr blog again... blogger thought it would be funny to unfollow u and u wernt comin up on my news feed :( anyhu good to see yr happy n doing well missed ya xx
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