Today I have consumed:
-water (of corse)
-Naked All natural fruit boost
This Naked juice is yummy and a great after work out reward especially when I feel the fainting point. I love this juice. I got it from Target next to the salad supplies, fruits and vegetables. Its 100% juice and there is no sugar added. It even has what fruits and the boost it is made with.
The fruit: 2 3/4 apples, 1/2 banana, 1/3 kiwi, and a hint of pineapple
The Boost: 1300mg spirulina (I have no idea), 400mg chlorella, 100mg broccoli, 100mg spinach, 50mg blue green algae ( doesn't sound too pleasant), 50mg garlic(?) 75mg barley grass, 75mg wheat grass, 50mg ginger, and 50mg parsley
Wow for having all that stuff in it, a lot of it gross sounding, it tasted fucking awesome. The calorie count is 280. Not the number I want, but it has all of this healthy stuff in it so I won't complain. :)
I didn't do too much cardio at the gym which is regrettable but there were just so many people in there and it was making me nervous. I tend to get "nervous" or as my doctor likes to say anxiety when I'm on a mission and there is a lot of people blocking me from getting it done and not letting me focus. So I tried to get out of there as fast as I could.
K and I wanted to do a GTL day (gym, tan, laundry) but we decided not to because our schedules were different. I think it was a good thing we didn't hang out though because I always feel obligated to eat around her. Even when I don't really feel all that hungry just because of her smirky little comments. I hope she doesn't say anymore there really starting to get annoying. I might just look up effects of sex addictions and throw them in here and there just to see how she feels but I'm not in the mood for a fight right before we leave for spring break.
Disappointed because I haven't had the first growl of the fast today. Really what can I expect, I've been eating normal for the past 2 weeks. Hopefully it will come tomorrow. I don't even feel hungry. Just a little lightheaded from the work out. This isn't really a challenge for me although it is only day one. I still don't feel like I'm controlling myself unless there is some kind of challenge. I think I might go 4 days. If you want to join let me know I love having fasting buddies it makes the ride a little smoother to know someone else is doing it too. You also get an accountability partner ha. Heather is doing the fast with me I think :).
I haven't talked to J since may 10. Although I said I didn't want to talk to him again I'm a little upset he hasn't tried to talk to me STILL. I have a lot of self control with men as well so I know I won't talk to him first. But all the self control goes down the drain if he does talk to me. I know I would respond. Wahhhh. Oh well, I need to keep my focus on school and ana. And on spring break my focus will be drinking and partying. This may sound immature but if I don't get arrested or end up on the beach naked this spring break I will not feel I did my fellow spring breakers good. I might be a disappointment. I don't like to disappoint. ;) No posting for a week. Its going to be a sad week
OH SHIT THE FIRST GROWL OF THE FAST JUST HAPPENED. Yay. So. Freaking. Satisfied. Now I can go to sleep on an empty stomach and a happy head. Good night all you skinnies
xoxoxox
P.S. Don't judge me, I like weird music. Its beautiful in a sad way. <3
Sounds like you were drinking Green Machine. That one is delicious and my favorite. I also suggest Red machine {it has flax that provides omega-3s that help you stay beautiful} and Mango {vitamin c!}.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you and J are a bit complicated. I hope that spring break takes your mind off him. 'Tis the season to go ape-shit. That was a wonderful song. Have you ever listened to the Cocteau Twins or Dead Can Dance? I suggest Alice from the former and Summoning of the Muse from the later.